outsiders

the last couple of days the snow had started to melt and things were getting back to normal, but last night it snowed again and now we have the return of dirty brown slush on the pavements. on the way to work this morning i was thinking how good it was i don't work for a bank at this time because my suit and shoes would be ruined in this mess.

work is ok at the moment. am entering that rather difficult time where you have your mind on escaping but nothing has happened and i have to concentrate on my current job. this is only going to get more and more difficult as the days and weeks and possibly months pass, and the shitty weather is not helping. still, what can you do.

anyways, when i do leave i doubt they will be surprised. i barely speak to anyone here. i bet tiger woods talks to his mother in law more than i talk to people in my department. the only people i talk to are the external consultants who are doing a SAP project and one of the incident managers. its strange that most of the people i am friendly with don't actually work for the company. maybe its because they don't know anyone here either and don't feel part of the group, that means you are more likely to be talk to people of the same kind. we are the outsiders.

that really is a shit movie trailer to be honest, but its a wicked film. anyways, this outsider just saw a call llogged saying that my system account which was due to expire at the end of this month needs to be set to expire at the end of april. that means they have decided to extend my contract, but haven't got the paperwork ready and so haven't officially told me yet. if i don't get anything else ofcourse i will have to stay. i have done it before where i have left with nothing to go to, but that was when i was very unhappy. thankfully i am not that at the moment.

today i have mostly been listening to marina and the diamonds - hollywood. good tune.