last days of '24

 I heard back from the recruiter from the asset manager I interviewed for about 2 weeks ago, and he said the feedback had been good, but they had now found someone they would like to hire on a permanent basis, who was supposedly much stronger with powershell. He said they wanted to keep me 'engaged' in case the permie candidate fell through. 

what a bunch of time wasters, and what a stupid patronising thing to tell someone. we dont want you, but if the guy we want turns out to be shit, then we will go with you, so dont give up hope, because we want to keep you 'engaged'. 

fuck! its hard being a contractor being treated like shit and having to be judged by cunts. I am really starting to believe that a criteria for a lot of firms is to hire someone good, but not someone too good who might know something they dont. the hedge fund i interviewed at this time last year then did make a hire in its infrastructure team, but the guy is nowhere near my technical level. he lists trivial tasks in his experience like adding disks and resizing virtual machines. you can train a chimpanzee to do that, its really not a skill to highlight. He has no certifications in anything over the last decade, no AWS or Azure cloud experience, no linux, no ansible, no automation, no terraform, no SQL, no technical migrations no networking and basic AD. how did i get beat by that?. maybe its because there is no danger of him talking about something the hiring manager knows nothing about. 

i really really hope something comes through for me in the new year. working with the team in India at my current place is a pain in the ass, and i know the guy in Pittsburgh and Texas feel the same and i think even a couple of the guys in India are not happy either. its a shitshow. 

still, it could be worse. i could be living in gaza waiting for my turn to die in the genocide that is taking place. 

something on the horizon.....eventually

 so i heard back from the commodity trader and its a no thank you. fuck!. am still in the running at the asset manager and whilst i thought the interview went quite well, you never can tell and i could get blown out of that one as well. 

today was really shit at my current job. the other people have been there a decade and just have no concept of what it might be like for new starters. they just blast through the explanations in a very superficial manner seemingly unwilling or unable to explain concepts of architectures or how software and components function. 

 i know i am not the only one of the 4 new starters that is struggling. the guy in Pittsburgh also expressed frustration and the guy in Dallas has gone a bit quiet and i think one of the new guys in India is not up to speed either. its been a shitshow since the first day i started. the recruiter was clueless, the HR was incompetent and the technical department i am in has its head up its own ass. For 4 consecutive days i have asked for a few minutes of time with one of the existing techies to go through a particular technical setup and each time he has said he will call me that day and he has not done so. 

they are so staggeringly unhelpful. if you are going to be rude and dismissive to your new colleagues, at least get to know them first and be so for a reason. these people are on that setting by default. 

fuck it, i dont care. if the asset manager comes through, great, and if it does not i will still keep looking and hopefully something comes up in the new year. i spoke to one of the guys based in manchester who also expressed frustration with getting information from our team, and he has been there 18 months. nope, i am not going to bang my head against the wall working with people like that in my team for 18 months. i will get something somewhere eventually. 

almost maybe

its the week before the week before christmas and suddenly i have been getting calls about jobs.

i have an interview this week with an asset manager and i am also up for a role at a commodities trading house. hopefully something comes through and i can start the new year working some place new and feeling motivated and useful. 

my current role is still rolling as it has been and am still being ignored and underutilized. spoke to one of the other guys in the UK who has been there a year and he said getting information and knowledge out of the existing members of the team that i was in was very difficult. my initial impressions about the team has only been reinforced by hearing that. 

hopefully one of these contracts comes through and i can be done. its going to be a long hard slog trying to work with the other guys in the team i am in, and they seem to be making it needlessly difficult by their lack of co-operation and knowledge sharing. thats fine, i will make other arrangements. if neither one of these 2 contracts comes through for me, i will still keep pushing to escape. 

this is disintagration performed by the Cure. absolutely stunning.