school of seven bells

for the first time in about 7 weeks since my dad died, i went out this week and met some friends after work and also went to football for the first time on thursday night. am slowly getting back to normality although its going to be a new normal because things wont ever be the same again. 


work has been a bit trying this week. not fun at all and i really i hope i land something else soon. my plan was to see out july and then start applying for new contracts in august when i would be a month from finishing at my current place. that plan went out the window after i got a couple of calls this week about some contracts and i also saw a couple of good roles that i had to apply to. no way would i let them just slide by because of some self imposed timetable i have no need to enforce on myself. 


i really would like to be in a position to leave in 6 weeks time and have something sorted out. this bank is not like i thought it would be like and how i managed it would be. its one of the smaller investment banks in london and i thought it would be using all the latest software and be fast and nimble. its not like that at all. lots of beauracracy, old servers, old software and very political. my teamleaders boss is an asshole. really rude and loud and a bit of a dick head, who likes to put people down publicly and always seems to be angry. today he got some of his own medicine because one the managing directors slated him in an email and cc'd lots of other people in it. i bet he didnt like it but maybe he learned something about his own behaviour from it.....or maybe not. 


always be worried when you go some place and they CC lots of people on emails that appear to have nothing to do with you. it shows there is a culture of ass covering and a blame culture. i get CC'd on mails that have nothing to do with me. stop spamming me with this shit. to me, its a sign of a disfuntional political organisation. 


weather is supposed to be turning starting from saturday. its been horrible and rained almost every day this month so far. summer is supposed to be starting this weekend. 3 months late, but better late than never. cali is calling me ever louder. 


today i have mostly been listening to school of seven bells - scavenger. wicked tune.