was feeling really rough yesterday but feel much better today. 3 paracetemol plus seemed to do the trick yesterday evening after i got home. was tempted to take more but didn't want to risk doing a 'heath ledger'.
feel much better today anyhow. its bad enough working where i work but its even worse when you feel like shit all day. my tolerance for mindless process and bullshit has returned and i am ready for another day in the mental abyss.
am certain that i have got stupider since i have been here. working in an investment bank will make anyone stupider but the rate of decline is definitely greater where i am now. is it any suprise that we are in a credit crunch and these people have almost bankrupted their firms?. i shit you not when i say that common sense and logical thinking is actively discouraged at these firms. culturaly they are very starnge environments to work in.
i don't know, maybe its me. maybe i am the crazy one, the one that is not normal. everyone else seems to me to be content to not use common sense or logical thinking. maybe i should just resign myself to the fact that this is how it is. that they don't want you to use your brain or think about anything.
nah!, fuck it, that ain't me. i shall persist in being not normal.
had a call from a recruiter yesterday about a job that might be coming up in the new year. also had a couple of other mails from other recruiters as well. something will turn up......soon i hope.today i have mostly been listening to ida maria - oh my god.
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