blackstar

it was a long 4 day weekend for easter. weather was cloudy and cool and it got progressively worse so that today it rained the whole day. it looked like november outside instead of spring time in april. cycled to the gym and put in a couple of good times. could have gone a little faster but my bike its a bit tired and everything needs to be lubricated and tightened up. its just feels a little loose and i havent got 100% confidence in it at high speed. something for me to do one evening this week if it ever stops raining (forecast is rain all week). 


was glad to be away from work. its all a bit frustrating and i can go in tomorrow with a clear head and start relaxed. got called on sunday morning at 9am by someone in dubai who had gotten my details from somewhere and asking if i was interested in a 6 month contract in the middle east. i told him i was. i dont think i know the stuff they are looking for, but it sounded like he wasnt too sure either so will see if he gets back to me. i wont hold my breath. 


in the meantime i have decided to apply for other contracts. i feel better when i am at least trying to find something better. it gives me a psychological boost and makes me feel better about going to work. will see how it goes. maybe nothing will turn up or maybe there might be something good out there. if you dont keep looking and put yourself out there, then nothing is going to happen. 


i feel myself already counting down to september and a trip to california. have asked a few of the guys from football if they are interested. a couple of them have said they might be, but i am almost certain they wont make it. they dont have the curiousity to find new bars to go out to on a friday night in london, let alone wanting to go all the way to LA and san diego. if they went there, they would find the closest irish pub to the hotel and go there every night. i guarantee it. 


its why i always end up going solo. i dont spend a small fortune following a football team and on a season ticket. i dont have a car and i dont spend £50 per week on beer in the same shitty pub every week. some people have things that are important to them, be that tottenham hotspur, beer or a mercedes. whats important to me is california and sunshine and beaches and girls in bikinis and a couple of friends that live out there. 


today i have mostly been listening to radiohead - blackstar. its from their great album the bends. after that album came OK Computer and the consensus and critics all said it was their masterpiece and best album. thats not true. the Bends is their best album.