mothers of the disappeared

another shite day at work. too much stuff going on and i was on my own completely today so had no one to ask about where anything was. i can sit there and support vmware or the F5 load balancer or the active directory or any of their windows servers, but i cant guess how their network is segmented or where their firewalls are, and yet it appears as though they expect me to guess it. how am i supposed to know, if no one tells me and the people i ask cant tell me. 
no bother, its a short week and there are only 3 more days to go. 


whilst interviewing for this role that i am at now i also interviewed at an investment bank. they were hiring 2 Windows server admins, and they interviewed 3 candidates, including me. you would figure i had a 2 in 3 chance. well it turned out they wanted the other 2 and they turned me down. they said technically i was good but that the other 2 guys would be a better fit in the team. yeah, whatever. anyways it appears as the other 2 didnt work out because they have re-advertised for 2 windows server guys again. its weird how shit turns out and not bigging myself up or anything, but thats what happens when you turn me down. i might not overly sell myself in interviews but i know what i know and i will happily go up against the competition. if they choose to go another way, they can, but i knew i couldnt have been the worst out of 3. that bank can go eat shit. ha ha ha!!!. 





the only bonus about working there (aside from the money) is the hour and half reading time i get on the train. am in the middle of reading my book about the dirty war and the disappeared in argentina in the the 70's and early 80's and its a shocking and heartbreaking story. if you have the means, i recommend you read it. it will also make you think about the language presidents and prime ministers use in their 'war on terror' and the justifications they give. it resembles that used by the military junta in argentina who also justified their actions using language that justified their murder and torture. 


today i have mostly been listening to u2 - mothers of the disappeared. this was from a time when u2 sang about important things.