starving

after yesterdays disagreement that the 2 guys i work with had, one of them has not come into work today. probably best that they cool off, but its a shame that they are both behaving like this. am trying to be the peacemaker in between them but am not going to go out of my way to help them too much. if they want to bicker like children there is nothing i can really do about it. you really would think they would know better.

2 new unix contractors started on monday and have spent the last 4 days sitting in the canteen because they have no pcs, desk, logins. what a shambles, but you got to laugh fellas.

was supposed to have a call this afternoon from that games company that might be looking to hire someone but i have no confirmation so i don't know if it will happen. have heard that might have some projects coming up in the new year. will do a bit of preperation in the meantime as it better to be safe than sorry.

something come through for me in the new year, please please please. i want to do a job in IT and computers again. sorry to break it to the people that work here in the tech department but what we are doing is not a serious or proper computing job. its just not fellas. its all just proceduralised (if thats a word???) bullshit.

that feeling i had when i got my first job in computers, of wanting to learn about things i didn't know, has not dissipated in the slightest over the years. that fire is still burning for me. have been downloading lots of whitepapers about new products and guides to intalling and configuring various SANs and servers and lots of other shit i have no clue about.

i am not clever or brilliant at what i do. i am not going to make any new discoveries or come up with anything that hasn't been seen or done before. its just that i haven't seen it or done it and so for me its a new discovery, and thats good enough for me.

found myself nearly buying a chemistry book a couple of days ago, after reading in the paper about BASF, the chemicals company putting out a profits warning because there was less demand for products like polyethelyne. found myself thinking about organic chemistry and the make up of a polyethelyne molecule. shit i need to get a more interesting job. my brain is starving.

look after yourself cali girl.