Acrobat

 

Last December i get a call from a headhunter telling me he is representing a hedge fund and they would like to interview me for a role. We have a brief chat about money and when i tell him how much i wanted, he paused and then told me to add 30 grand to what i said. its a shit tonne of money. 

so i have a zoom call the following week and it seems to go OK, because they immediately want to arrange another on-site interview the following week. by now its mid december when everything is usually getting quiet, but they were in a rush. i ofcourse say i will go in an see them. 

Meeting the manager in person, i realise he is very direct and blunt, which is not a problem a for me, but it just comes across a bit like an act. the he asks me a question about how i would reconnect to an esx server if it had fallen off the network in vcenter. i said i might enable ssh and connect and then restart some relevant daemons, or when that happened to me a few months ago, i would just restart the esx server, and that might bring it back. the exact same thing had happened to me on the first day of my current job, and i did exactly that any it came back to normal. 

he said that was not an option and what the keyboard short cut was to get the console up locally on the server. its not something i would do every day, so i could not remember and would just look it up. i told him as much and said it might be one of the F function keys. if you google it, you find out in 5 seconds its Alt-F2, but whatever. 

Then we were talking about Active Directory authentication, and i explained what the mechanism was when a client authenticates, but he disagreed with me and said it worked a different way to how i had said. i told him that i read it somewhere but that i must have misunderstood it, if that was the case. 

anyway the interview carries on. he asks me questions about Linux, and AWS and Git, but I notice that whenever the conversation drifts towards a subject adjacaent to a technology he asks me about, but is not specifically about a particular app or tech, he ends the discussion and moves on to something else. we talk about GitHub, and when i talk about AWS Code Commit, which is Amazons cloud based git system, he is not interested. When i talk about WinFSx he loses interest, or when i mention CodeBuild and CodePipeline he ends the discussion quickly. same happens when talking about secrets management and we go from talking about Hashicorp Vault and i start talking about AWS Secrets manager, which he clearly shows he is not interested in. 

anyway the interview finishes and i hear nothing for 3 weeks, after which i chase the headhunter to ask what is going on, and he said they had not been given any feedback so it would seem that they are not going to call me back. 

it got me thinking about the interview again. i actually looked up the AD authentication question which he 'corrected' me on, and i found the microsoft article which i had read and which i had not misunderstood. i was right and he was wrong. i also think he had a certain experience with certain vendors or apps or tech and whenever the conversation drifted to alternatives or things that were similar, his disinterest and cutting off of those discussions belied a lack of knowledge in those areas to. 

anyway 3 months have passed and he still has not filled the role, because i saw it advertised a couple weeks ago. I might be shit but surely not every candidate in London is shit. i suspect he is looking for a candidate that gives his the answers he is looking for, but that he does not know what he thinks the answers are, is actually wrong. It reminded me of that twat i worked with a private equity firm who also the that particular type of arrogant confidence that only ignorant people have. 

Jaysus!, its hard being a contractor in London. i constantly have to learn things in the evenings and weekends and have to do exams, and then i have to constantly open myself up to scrutiny and judgement as i move jobs every year and have to be interviewed. i do enjoy learning things and whilst i get hired for what i know, i am interested in what i dont know, and that is why i move jobs so often. curiosity is a good trait to have, but i suppose for some people it can get tiring.  I dont tire of curiosity, i tire of having to be interviewed by people that posses no curiosity or that see it as a threat to their positions or status and something that has the potential bruise their fragile egos. 

so i missed out on the lottery win salary. fuck it. i dont need to work with people i can learn nothing from. you have to be a certain type to be a long term contractor in London. lose the ego. keep learning, ignore the ignorant and have a thick skin to be able to tolerate idiots who think they are geniuses, when in fact they are too dumb to know they dont know. 

you need to be an acrobat in this game. 

i wouldnt want to be you.....

The hedge fund that turned me down with the asshole interviewer last summer, re-advertised the job in July. evidently amongst the dozens of candidates they must have applied the second time round clearly they must have been all shit........because the same job is being re-advertised for a 3rd time. 

surely not everyone you have seen can be shit.....but i do know that he is!.

In other news i am now Terraform certified. some at that hedge fund may think its not as cool as managing Exchange server hosted on prem, or managing disks and LUNs on a SAN in a datacentre, but i think its cool.  

I wonder when the penny will drop for him when he realises that the reason he cant find people with the skills he is looking for are because those skills are quickly becoming obsolete, and that proper techies with an actual interest in tech have moved on. its not that they are not good enough, its precisely because they are good that they dont do all that old shit that you are still doing. 

 

no one is good enough?

 So evidently everyone one that was interviewed by the hedge fund that turned me down a few weeks ago, turned out to be useless as well. good to know i am not the only one they thought was shit. 

........but really?. in the whole of London paying a 6 figure salary and being able to attract talent from investment banks, hedge funds and tech firms, you still did not find anyone good enough?. 

........or maybe the people at the firm are not good enough. maybe candidates show no enthusiasm for managing windows servers on old tech like vmware. maybe people are no longer interested in managing disks on a SAN. maybe some people dont give a shit about running on prem Exchange. 

..........maybe the guy interviewing felt threatened by contractors with experience across dozens of firms and projects and who were interested in learning new technology and not upgrading old technology. 

..........maybe he was looking for someone good......but not too good. 

who knows. but yesterday they re-advertised the role looking for more candidates. 

Bob Dylan is pretty good. 

All Talk

Fuck!!, it happened again and i saw it coming. 

I have landed a new job already at a US owned payments processing firm and its all the stuff i am interested in. AWS and terraform and containers and kubernetes......but i got a call about a job at a hedge fund and it was paying silly money, so i thought why not go for it and see what happens. 

I get sent the details and time of the interview and i do what i always do and look up on linkedin both of the guys that will be interviewing me. oh, thats odd, they have both been there exactly 10 and a half years. Oh, thats weird they both worked at the same firm before they started at the hedge fund. alarm bells are ringing. 10 and a half years at the same place!. are these guys just buddys who are comfortable and are they really going to be open to some outsider coming in?. 

the interview starts with the first guy and his second sentence after saying hello, is he would appreciate if if i was honest in my responses as he does not want to waste his time and he would not want to waste my time either. what the fuck!. that is how you start an interview, by telling someone not waste their time????. i had 4 and half hours of interviews at goldman sachs and they did not tell me to not waste their time, but you are annoyed about interviewing me for 45 minutes. 

anyway i knew it was going to be a shitshow from then on, and it was. he barely asked me anything and there were no technical questions at all. all done in 25 minutes. i thought you said you were not going to waste my fucking time dickhead!. 

he asked me about Exchange server. He asked me about managing and administering Windows servers and VMWare. the job spec for the role had mentioned they wanted someone who knew about terraform and AWS, but he did not ask me a single question about either?????. 

Towards the end he asked me what tech i was interested in, and i said AWS, Azure and terraform because lets be honest, managing storage and hardware and windows servers is really dull. i did not give a shit at this stage as its basically all the shit he does and has been doing for a decade. he dismissed it and said the linux team use AWS and terraform and look after it, not his windows team and changed the subject swiftly. 

at another point i was telling him about my work history and mentioned i had been a contractor for 12 years, at which point he immediately shot back and said, yes, he had been one as well and was familiar with working on lots of different projects and moving from one firm to another. weird thing is, he has not been a contractor. according to his own linkedin profile he has worked in 3 places over the last 15 years and none of them were contracts,  why lie?. feel a bit threatened do you?. yes, i could do that!. been at loads of firms and used all kinds of tech!!. no you have not sunshine. 

Oh, i get it. just like the asshole who had been at the private equity place for a decade that i worked at a few years back, you feel confident talking about old shit that you know, but feel threatened by new shit because after 10 years at the same place you are putting all your energy in just protecting your position and keeping the lights on but not learning anything new. you lack the confidence to start something new from zero again technically in a new field, or professionally at a new firm.  

anyways i did not get the role. unsurprisingly i saw it re advertised the next day. hey, maybe everyone he interviewed was not good enough. maybe we are all shit......or maybe its just you. 

so i will be earning a bit less money in my new job (and a bit more than i earn now), but i will work in an environment that runs AWS upto their eyeballs and processes $300bn worth of transactions a year. i think i might learn something interesting. no they dont run vmware. no they dont manage their own storage on site. no i wont be managing on prem hypervisors. that is for donkeys, its 2022 not 2012 for goodness sake. 

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i'll wait up in the dark

for you to speak to me.....

Wussy - Teenage Wasteland (Live on KEXP)

Golf

Jesus Christ is London full of twats. was out driving with my little boy in the car after taking him to the library and some idiot in a VW golf starts tailgating me. the speed limits have all been set to 20mph where i live, and its a good thing if it prevents accidents and saves lives.......unless you happen to be an under-educated pleb in a 2009 dark blue VW golf. what the fuck are you doing?. what is the point of driving 6 inches away from my bumper you cockney cunt?. 

I know you hate immigrants and it must sting you inside that you have drive behind the son of an immigrant in a Benz, but its not my fault you are angry with your life that its left you having to drive a 13 year old diesel Golf. You did not work hard enough at school, you are thick as shit and you now do a shit job despite having opportunity and advantages, so be angry with yourself, dont be aggressive with me when you are driving your piece of shit. 

hey maybe he was in a rush and needed to get to work quickly. all those cocks aren't going to suck themselves.  

Asymmetrical power?

having spent most of my professional career as an IT contractor, i switch jobs and get interviewed probably more than most people and with sites like linkedin, i can now see the the backgrounds and experience of the people who will be interviewing me. 

In the same way people make assumptions based on my work history, the firms i have worked at, my funny foreign sounding name and how whis all adds up into how i would fit into their firm and their projects, i also do the same on my side. The difference is the assymetry of power in the process, with them interviewing having the power to hire me or not, and me not really having as much decesion making power in the process of choosing who to be intereiewed by and getting hired or not.......except i do and have been exercising what little power i do have. 

A couple of recent examples. I am currently working for an investment firm but i want to leave as its gotten a bit boring and they gave me a piss poor raise aftre praising my work. sorry, but i think i can find someone else who will give me more money. this is not JUST my hobby. so I get a call and a job spec for a role at a Japanese bank. first thoughts even before reading the spec or meeting them are that its going to pay very well but will be stale, boring and easy, but hey!, getting well compensated for being bored for 6 months is fine by me, and then i will move to the next thing. 

I have worked at a Japanese bank before and that is how it went. the agency sends me details of who will be interviewing me and its obvious within in 30 seconds of looking them up that this shit ain't going to work. the head of IT is someone who has been there for 20 years and worked their way up from heldesk. they also have no degree. sorry, but that is whack.  i started doing support and helpdesk type work early in my career, but then i moved to get more exposure to other tech and more experience. you dont stay at the same firm being promoted by default as everyone else leaves. I also look up the other techie who will interview me and once again the degree is non-existent and he had been at the firm 14 years. A 3rd person who will be on the call had been there 9 years. coincidentally they all seem to be from Essex. alarm bells are ringing!. 

I log into the zoom interview and the IT manager is a middle aged woman, who is sat in her kitchen, looking dishevelled and appears to have just rolled out of bed and has 9 year old kids running around behind her. really?, that's how you log into a online video interview with a candidate as the IT manager?. very unprofessional. Then the other 2 guys start talking and they are asking me about Microsoft Access issues????. I used MS Access in the late 1990s and have not been anywhere near it since. that is for helpdesk to deal with, even if you are running it 2 decades longer than you should have. i nearly interrupt them and ask them if they have heard of SQL server, but 2 minutes into this interview its just reinforced my preconceptions about Japanese investment banks in London and also the type of people who would stay for a decade or two, in one. they then start asking me about Microsoft Exchange. Cool, i know about Exchange, i used to support it in 20-fucking-12 but its now 2022 and you really should be using Office 365. its a bad reflection on the environments and estate you manage that you are asking me about old shit like this. do you want to ask me about Novell 3.12 as well?. i used to support that a couple of decades ago. 

I really am not interested in old shit. we are very luck to work in technology and are lucky to be in a sector in which the pace of innovation is so fast where stuff from 5 years ago looks antiquated. my mono syllabic answers and shrugs of shoulders let it be known i really was not interested in them, their firm or their job. these peoples heads are going to explode when they discover Office 365, Amazon Web services and terraform. 

Also, why is it that there is a almost always a requirement of having a Computer science or science/engineering degree when i apply to jobs in finance and yet i constantly come across people in the industry that do what i do or at even higher positions and do not have what i am always being asked for?. None of the people that interviewed me at that Japanese bank had a degree and yet i wont be considered unless i have one. fortunately i do happen to have an engineering degree, but i do wonder if that requirement is just a selective excuse to be used as a bar to prevent some people getting even the opportunity to be considered, because the amount of people i have seen that do not have a degree in these organisations is quite high........as long as you are of a particular ethnic group. Have NEVER met a Chinese/Indian/Asian/Black person working in a bank that did not have a degree. have come across plenty o cockneys who appear to have left school at 16 and then just managed to land jobs at investment banks some how. how the fuck does that happen....?. i recall leaving uni and struggling to get a job with an electronic engineering degree and physics, chemistry and maths A-levels. the half wit PM of the UK is a thick as shit, clown with a classics degree. which sort of proves my point. read an article the other day about Tony Blairs son doing an ancient history degree and landing himself a job at Morgan Stanley trading derivatives. why the fuck would you hire a history grad. surely there are enough maths, economics grads out there that could pick it up faster. oh wait.....Tony Blairs son. i get it now.....

the other interview i had was at a very prestigious US investment bank, which i described to a friend as like Goldman Sachs but without the scandals. Here i was being interviewed by a graduate, who had worked at a handful of other firms but had now been at this bank for about 9 years. that is what experience is supposed to look like. not just one name on your CV and still being at your first firm for the last 20 years. 

Anyway he starts telling me about the role, and 2 minutes into it, i realise they are looking for a different skill set than mine. i politely interrupt him and tell him so, and he seems surprised. he tells me its the first time anyone has said that they might not be suitable for a role and effectively asked not to be considered for it. He even amusingly says, that i did not even attempt to 'waffle my way through' his questions and pretend to know it. I told him, i could have but there really is no point and it does not serve either of our interests to do so. 

we end the interview and he tells me that London tech scene is a small world and he will keep me in mind if anything closer to my skill set comes up in his team. 

we dont have much power and as contractors we realise we are just a resource for a firm and to be honest, i do my job mostly for the money, but we do have choices. i have wasted far too much time in boring jobs doing easy work just playing along in the pantomime of work that everyone else has, and i know how frustrating it is. i been doing this shit for too long and now i know what i can do, what i want to do, and what i want to learn. hopefully the US investment bank calls me back 6 or 12 months down the line. if that Japanese bank calls me, i am not available....ever. 

in the meantime i got a new role doing AWS and terraform for an online payments provider. interesting technology on a massive scale. less money than the Japanese bank, but not career suicide as i figured out why they have all been there at the Japanese bank for so long. they cant leave because who the fuck is still using Access and Exchange!!!. 

a friend of mine who was a contractor in the early 2000s and made a fortune doing Lotus Notes at a bank for over a decade, recently told a mutual friend he had 'retired'. he is not even 50 let alone 60. he has not 'retired' from tech. tech retired him. dont do old shit and just cash in on it as long as you can. yes, he is rich but now he just sits at home. i took my little boy to the park a few weeks ago and saw him trying to jog. holy shit, people get fat in retirement!.

 

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A Pandemic of idiots

i have started running a few months ago because i could feel i was getting very unfit and sedentary during lockdown. i usually run around my local park but i have also started to going to nearby running track. its much nicer running on a flat track in lanes.........except for the fact that despite it being written down on the rules, some people walk around the track in lane 1. lanes 1 -3 are for runners and lanes 4-6 are for walking and for the real dumbasses, yes, you go anti clockwise. 

today some silly woman was walking slowly in lane 1 and was talking to her phone. i ran past her at least 6 times and despite me spitting, blowing hard and passing within a few centirmers of her, she just carried on strolling in lane 1 like a fucking dumbass. i was not the only person running. this track is for exercise you daft cow, if you want to gossip on your phone, you can do it in lane 6. 

then to top it off, i am running up the back straight and there is a guy walking in lane 1 in the opposite direction. well done mate, you are even dumber than the dumb cunt on the phone, who is at least walking around the track in the right direction. evidently the scowl on my face, the fact that i started running faster towards him and my clear intention of running into him if need be, made him suddenly jump out of the way. fuck me people are stupid. 

then on the way home some cunt, in a BMW 5 series starts waving his arms at me because i had the nerve to give way to a bus. giving way to another vehicle was clearly was intolerable and he started tailgating me and waving his arms like someone having a seizure. if only he really was. as soon as the road widened up a little he floored it and overtook me aggresively, only then to get stuck behind a bus. fucking dickhead, and oh, you BMW is shit. you did not even get the M-sport version, but just got a 530 SE. it looks shit. 

last week i was in the car with my wife and driving down a narrow road a car comes speeding towards me in the opposite direction like an idiot. he had a place to pull in and let me by but being the cunt he was, he passed it by 5 meters and then we just got stuck looking at each other. either i back up 100m or you back up 5m. what will be quicker you fucking low IQ dumbass?. well done, you dick head, it will be quicker for you and me, if you back up 5m which he did. as i am going past him, he winds his window down and shouts "say thank you then you twat". my wife turned to me and said, "he seems angry.", to which i replied, "well if you look at it from his perspective, you would be angry too if if you were fat, ginger, drove a nissan on a lease and had an ugly wife".  

RIP DMX

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drifting

finished my last contract at the end of March. i was doing a server patching project for the European offices and there was someone else doing the same in north america.
for the year i was there, i managed to get all the European servers done, and automated it all as well. after all, it would be stupid to not automate and schedule this type of task.

i found that the 2 people in the north america office were reluctant to put in any sort of schedule or automation. it was obvious that they were deliberately doing it slowly and manually just to extend their contracts. anyways, i finished up the european servers and once that was done, they did not need me any longer and my contract finished. that is fine. i am not going to deliberately work slowly just to string out the project in the hope of doing mind numbingly boring work for another year. the 2 people in the north america stayed and got contract renewals. Europe patching was a slick process able to managed by their regular support guys, needing maybe 15 hours a week of working time. North America still needs 2 full time people to do the same job (80hours/week).

this week i started a new contract. its a windows server migration. there is a guy there who has been on the project for a year and over the last week he has been showing me what to do. its blindingly obvious that he is deliberately going slowly. i was watching him work this week and he seemed to be doing everything so slowly. shit!, not this again.

if i am honest, i dont like working. i dont like going to work on the train every morning. i dont like moving jobs once or twice a year. i dont actually work very hard. but fuck me, these people are taking it to a new level. it must be a real effort to work that slowly. its easier to just do the work, than to string it out needlessly for that long. i can see why they have brought in another contractor in.

given the rate at which this guy is working, the sun will have expanded and consumed the earth by the time they get the servers migrated over. humankind will be floating through space looking for new habitable planets and galaxies by then, and they cant take the risk that they will still be running windows 2008 then, to do so. hence i got the call.

take care

Fuck me, i have to deal with some cunts. i might have mentioned it before, but recruitment agents are scum, but they are scum i have to deal with to get contracts. why firms use them is beyond me. hopefully tools like linkedin make recruitment agencies extinct. cant happen soon enough. 

am currently dealing with someone at an agency is who is so thick and yet so patronising. despite this being my 14th contract, she gave me a 30 minute interview prep and asked me if was planning on wearing a suit and shoes to the interview. i replied that was a good idea and i might not wear my jeans and a t-shirt this time.  

she then gave me some set questions to ask in the interview which were terrible. i said i would not ask those questions in the interview. she seemed offended and asked why?. because its unprofessional and makes you look like a dumb ass to ask the person interviewing you, to give you feedback on how the interview went, at the end of an interview. that's why?. 

anyway, i got the job today despite not using her dumb interview tips. today she calls me to say i should BCC her in emails that i send to other agencies cancelling other job opportunities and interviews i had lined up. what the fuck!!!?. after 10 minutes of angrily protesting how unethical it was to blindly copy her into emails with competitors revealing confidential commercial information, she said she would get her director to speak to me as it was vital she was bcc'd for the offer to be accepted. yeah!, put another idiot on the phone, i want to hear what this prick has to say. 

some slimy shit then comes on the phone and tries to justify it. i then explain once again how unprofessional and unethical it is to share commercially sensitive information from rival agencies without their knowledge. he then asks me to just forward the emails, redacting the names of clients and the agents and the agencies. OK. what is the fucking point of that you halfwit. 

i then sent back a redacted email which i might as well have written to myself which deleted the name and email address of the agent i sent it to, his firm and the client i had been put forward for was also deleted. the mail contained no information aside from saying "i no longer wanted to pursue the role". i might as well have sent the director this blog post as proof. dumb ass!.  

anyways, it seems to be going through now. we need to take care. out integrity is really all we have. people try and buy our ethics and morals. there are lots of sharks and maggots out there trying to push people into doing shady things just for money. 

dont like

i tend to post about the cunts i come across living in london but there are some people in this city that i respect and admire and which show how nice and decent human beings can be to each other.

a couple of weeks ago i am parking up at a shopping center. a car cuts across me and pulls into a disabled bay which are right next to the entrance. a middle aged woman around 45, steps out of the car and i assume her daughter who looks about 18, gets out the passenger side and they walk into the centre. neither was disabled and they were related. they had a resemblance and they both looked like cunts. 

about a week ago i was in a clinic getting an immunisation injection done for my little baby boy. there was another woman there who was waiting to have the same done for her son. her little boy had a severe head deformity and also seemed to have some respiratory difficultly as well. i think he might have also had an issue with his eyes. it was upsetting to see such a little baby have to deal with such serious medical problems but the little boy was also showing spirit in still making it through his first few months of life despite all these difficulties which will likely last for the rest of his life.
i also have immeasurable respect for the way his mother was looking after him and how challenging it must be to look after the little man on a daily basis. they both have my admiration. wonderful people supporting each other and the force of will and strength of the little man to deal with his severe medical conditions. i have been thinking of that little boy every day since i saw him.

i have also been thinking of the woman and her teenage daughter who parked their SUV in the disabled parking bay and then walked into the shopping center. you have my utter contempt you cunts. those spaces are for people like the little baby or for those that would find it difficult parking in a multi storey car park 40 meters from the entrance and where they would have to take a lift to reach it. 
that cunt and her cunt daughter dont care about people that might have some physical impairment. fuck them, we are more important. the section they parked in is disabled parking only. its not like its a mixed zone and they made a mistake. there are no non-disabled badge holders parking in that area. its 20 spaces on ground level right next to the entrance. middle class scum in their 40 grand SUV parked in a disabled bay shopping in John Lewis. 

PS: today i was at a supermarket, parked in parent/baby/toddler zone, because i have a baby and a pram with me. a man pulls up next to me in his range rover and gets out. his 2 daughters are with him and they get out as well. neither are toddlers or babies and they obviously dont have a pram. they were about 10 and 8. he was wearing a tight pink t shirt and tight jeans. he looked about 50 but dressed like he was in jersey shore. he might have even had a fake tan. what a cunt.

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what a very brave and principled person. As Kaepernick has found, campaigning for equality and justice for people is objected to by those who have power.

audi cunts

see, i told you people who drive low end audis are cunts.

i was driving back from the gym and someone suddenly braked in front of me to take a left turn. i had noticed that they had been driving erratically and i dont think they knew where they were going. no problem. i braked as well, but the audi A4 behind me got upset and started beeping at me. obviously i should not have stopped and just crashed into the car in front. 

then after the car in front had made its turn, the audi started tailgating me and then overtook aggressively passing close. he was very annoyed.

it was a dark coloured 2009 audi a4 estate diesel. i would be annoyed if i had to drive around in a 10 year old piece of shit like that as well. i would be angry that i would have to pay 12.50/day surcharge to enter central London in that piece of crap. i would be angry with myself that i did not work harder in school so that i could get a better paying job that would mean i could afford a decent car. 

.....and maybe it stung more that despite the benefit of systematic and institutional racism, he got momentarily held up behind the child of immigrants driving a Benz. reap it you cunt. 

Hussle and Motivate - Nipsey Hussle (Official Video)

from the best album of 2018.

i occasionally mention how many cunts i come across in London. Nipsey Hussle was shot and killed last week. it turns out there are cunts in LA as well.

RIP Nipsey Hussle.

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here is a quick and important test. Do you like this song?. if the answer is No, you should get yourself to the nearest emergency centre and get yourself checked. you could be having a major health issue related to your ears and your brain not functioning properly. if they give you the all clear, and you still dont like this song, don't be relieved. it means you must be a twat.

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If you have watched CNN for 2 minutes you would know it is shit. weak journalism full of holes and lies and one sided. chasing ratings on sensationalist dumbed down stories. 
it turns out the people who run it are cunts as well. 

Killer Mike - "Reagan" (Official Music Video)

my heart and my best intentions still tell me that is true....
but the facts and the evidence tell me it is not....

land rover discovery

i fucking hate driving in London. its shit. the roads are full of cunts. i had said previously drivers of small audi cars were cunts and they now have someone to share the title with. drivers of land rover discovery. anyone who buys a land rover discovery in london is a cunt anyway, even without their cuntish driving and needless aggressiveness.

buy a proper range rover you cunt. oh no, you cant because you have not got a hundred grand spare, you underedecuted pleb. so he ends up buying a discovery. a shit land rover. the shittest land rover.

when you buy the lowest cheapest model made by a manufacturer it is a sign of desperation. just desperately reaching for that badge. someone in a proper range rover autobiography is not driving like a cunt. they are too scared of damaging their big car and they are too chilled enjoying the silky smooth ride and plush leather seats and high end stereo.

someone driving a discovery is bitter by default. he is permanently annoyed because he is pretending to be rich, but knows a discovery is all he can afford and he knows its crap. he is disappointed in himself constantly. that explains why he drives like a fucking twat all the time. i would rather take the bus or an uber than drive that piece of shit you are in.

this is carly rae jepsen - cut to the feeling. its a banging pop tune. i wonder what cunts in land rover discovery's listen to. ed sheeran, or any U2 album after Achtung baby in 1991. cunts.

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