Tuesday 28 January 2014

show me

am still getting calls from agents about other contracts. is this some sort of fucking joke, because i am not laughing. where were you all for 6 months last year when nobody called me about anything and now i get a contract and people are calling me every week, even though i have not applied for a job in over 6 months or sent my cv to anyone. i can guess what happens next. i finish my current contract at the end of april and then i wont be able to get a call back or an interview from anyone. its always the way, but this year there is a world cup on in june, so i will be content if i am not working then. 

no, i have not posted this by mistake. i do actually like this song. its kind of like a modern interpretation of lets get it on by marvin gaye. i do think these fellas are going to the regret the tattoos in a few years time. a friend of mine has some tattoos and they always fade and the edges blur and i can imagine in another 10 years its will just look like a big bruise. 



Friday 17 January 2014

shattered

i feel shattered. its been a long few months of darkness and cloud and long nights and dark morning and rush hour trains and work and rain. with the exception of 3 days over christmas i have not taken any time off from work, and i feel worn out and a bit fed up. 

i have 3 more months to get through till my contract is up and will see how it goes. i dont think they will need me after april and i really could do with a couple of weeks off. 

work is going ok. i cant complain about it because there is nothing to complain about. some of it is interesting, i am learning some things i did not know before and they pay me. you can not ask for more than that. i just need to get through the next 3 months. its really hit me that last couple of weeks. my energy is leaving me. have missed a few sessions at the gym but i forced myself to go on thursday night and it will set me up for good sessions this weekend. a good hard session always makes me feel better for a day or two. 

this song sounds like how i feel.