Thursday 30 December 2010

almost over

as i suspected, the film, hunger, was difficult viewing. good but a bit harsh. the lead actor does what christian bale did in the machinist and clearly goes on a starvation diet because he is skin and bones at the end of the film. if you have the means i recommend you watch it but not its not for the squeemish.

gym opened on wedensday and i went yesterday and today and its closed over the weekend and monday next week so after a couple of days good training its interrupted again. too many bank holidays. i wouldnt feel like that if i was working but seeing as i am not, these bank holidays are screwing up my routine.

on the subject of work i got a call from an agent saying that a company wanted to give me a technical interview. i didnt even know who they were and when i got sent the details i knew i didnt want to work for them. they weren't an investment bank, they weren't a hedge fund and they weren't interesting. its got to be one of those 3 for me to consider it. i nearly called the agent back and told him i would give it a pass but i thought i would be good practice for the new year and any other interviews i get.

it turned out to be one of those interviews where they asked very specific questions about their own network. i gave up even humouring them with even pretending to think of a logical answer after the first couple of questions and just said i dont know. i really meant i dont care, but was being polite.

this relates to an issue we had. say you need to access and esx server, how would you do it?.
connect to the vc and manage it through that
the vc is down and doesnt work, what else could you use?
vi client to the esx host.
no, that doesnt work either, what else
telnet to the esx server
no that is not working either.
ilo to the console of the server.
the ilo doesnt work either, what else
errr, i dont know, stick a keyboard and mouse on the physical machine.
you dont have access the physical server.
oh fuck it i dont give a shit. i dont even want this fucking job. i was just curious about the level of questions you would ask me. the level is cuntish. i actually said i dont know then. i meant i dont care.

he asked me a few questions after this about other various issues they had had, that were very specific. utterly pointless. you should try and find the level of knowledge on a subject someone has, not if they have happened to have previously come across the same specific problems you have had. you have a lot to learn about interviewing. they wont call me back. they are bigger fucking idiots than i already think they are if they do. i wont go in the event they do.

come the new year i will put myself out there and see what comes back. we shall see what comes up. stuff related to buying my flat has been quiet because its a short week because of bank holidays. am sure things will kick off again in from tuesday.

have already started to think about my trip to the states next year. i think i might pass on new york and just stay on the west coast for a 10 days. also someone i used to work with years ago has just moved to portland oregon and i saw him last week and said i should visit portland if i was on the west coast. am considering it and i could drive up from san francisco where i will be visiting my other friend anyway. its just an idea at the moment. i currently have no idea what i will be doing or where i will be working next year, but its good to have a plan on the back burner.

today i have mostly been listening to yeah yeah yeahs - y control. wicked tune.

Tuesday 28 December 2010

trust fund kids

bored to tears over these last few days. my gym is closed so i cant work out and my bank is closed so i cant sort out stuff for the place i am trying to buy, and i dont want to walk around with half a million people in the west end looking to buy shit i dont need just because its 20% off on sale. people go crazy in the sales. i bet they dont end up wearing half the stuff they buy.

downloaded a few films to keep me occupied. i watched america psycho which is good, all the presidents men with robert redford and dustin hoffman, which is in my list of favourite films of all time, the breakfast club, do the right thing and the usual suspects which is very good. i have a few films still left to watch. i think i will watch this next. it looks like it will be tough viewing, but also very good.



went round to see arsenal (my team) v chelsea at my friends place this evening, and the arsenal won 3-1, which makes a change against chelsea. it did mean i had to listen to whining and self pity from someone who takes 4 holidays a year (south africa, india, costa rica etc), works part time and has inherited hundreds of thousands of pounds in the few years i have known them, and that doesnt include the million plus they will get from daddy. stop whining. stop measuring your life by the amount of bathrooms you have in your house or how often you change your car and stop being so shallow. i didnt say it because its rude to criticise someone whilst watching their subscription based sports channel.

i had lunch a few weeks ago with another friend of mine who is also a trust fund kid and who was coming out with the same shit and wondering why he wasnt earning more and getting credit at his job. that day i told him tactfully and i reminded him that he had turned down a job offer from goldman sachs paying double what he was now earning, because he had said at the time that he didnt want to work that hard and he liked taking lots of days off and not staying late at work. at the time he also said he liked being able to come into work at 9.30 on days after he had been out clubbing the night before. i dont think he liked me reminding him about stuff he had said. i told him at the time he was crazy for turning them down and that he would regret it and that it was worth taking the job for the things he could learn and advance his career with and it would be worth doing even if it meant a pay cut, let alone the 100% pay rise they were offering. he is regretting it 3 years later. havent heard from him since i saw him that day. oh well.

am just getting annoyed with these trust fund kids whining about shit. people who didnt have to work in supermarkets whilst at school and university to make enough money to get by. people who got hundreds of thousands of pounds given to them, instead of actually working and saving up for years. people who got their jobs from contacts their parents have, and not on merit after competing against a field of talented candidates.

stop fucking whining you ungrateful shits. we are all very lucky having not being born in a huge swathe of the planet consisting of most of africa, latin america or asia, otherwise we would be living in abject poverty without access to clean drinking water and not having a bmw or not working for goldman sachs would be the least of our worries. even amongst those that have been born in western europe, north america and australia you are lucky because you have been given millions of pounds so enough complaining please. 6 billion people on the planet. 5.9 billion people worse off than you and you still fucking complain and feel sorry for yourself.

its rich wankers like this that ruined williamsburg that i mentioned in my last post.

another friend emailed me and asked what my plans were for new years eve. i told him i didnt have any but would go out if everyone else was going, although i didnt want to queue up anywhere or get ripped off and pay to just enter a bar that is free to go to the other 364 days of the year. i probably wont end up going out anywhere. i saw that camp freddy are playing a new years eve show at the roxy in LA. how cool would it be to go to that. if i was a millionaire trust fund kid i would definitely go to it, and i would have no excuse to complain about anything because i would have had the best night ever. unfortunately i am not a millionaire trust fund kid. will probably watch my film about hunger strikes instead.

if you dont know, camp freddy is a group consisting of dave navarro (janes addiction), matt sorum(g'n'r, the cult, velvet revolver) and a bunch of other people from other big bands, who play shows in LA sometimes. this is a clip of them with the lead singer or linkin park, and slash and duff from g'n'r.



anyways, that not what i have mostly been listening to today. i have mostly been listeing to plan b - prayin. good tune.



Wednesday 22 December 2010

williamsburg R.I.P

more running around talking to mortgage people and shit like that and have started getting my deposit for the flat all assembled in one account ready to pull the trigger as soon as i get the go ahead. my money was spread across various accounts and stuff so its going to take a few days for it all to converge in one place, especially since its christmas and there are bank holidays which means everything is taking a bit longer. hopefully we will get there soon. i dont want to be running around come the new year when i start to look for a new contract. it must be very stressful dealing with all this shit when you have to go to work during the day. thankfully i have the time to deal with all of it at the moment.

had another call about a job going at another bank. i told them i would do it so we shall see what happens. i dont expect to hear anything back from them or the hedge fund before that, till january. you very rarely get called in for interviews in the last weeks of december because there is no one around in these places to do the actual interviewing. we shall see what 2011 comes up with. would be ideal if i closed on the flat and got a new job all at the same time in the last week of january. that would be a touch.

it was the shortest day of the year yesterday. it kind of crept on me. usually its something i watch from weeks away constant telling myself that once i get past that day, it means that we are slowly coming out of the darkness and into the light. this time i barely noticed that it had come and gone. not being at work has chilled me out, and dealing with all this other stuff with the flat has kept me occupied. wont really notice the days getting longer till the end of january, but its just nice to know that it is actually happening even though we cant notice it.

today i have mostly been listening to the stone roses - breaking into heaven. these fellas were talented and cool and if you want to hear an awesome guitar performance just forward to 5 mins and enjoy.



and now something not so cool. when i go to new york i like to go to williamsburg. it was a part of brooklyn, new york that was not touched by tourism too much and it just seemed like a nice place to hang out in with some nice shops and nice restaurants and bars. i first went there around 6 years ago with a friend of a friend who was a local and lived there. he was a photographer and wasnt rich and i also noticed there were lots of polish immigrants and also lots of artists and students. in the summer they used to close down bedford avenue and had williamsburg walks and people would just sit out on the streets, kids would play in the fire hydrants and there was music and market stalls. it had a really community feel to it like you were in a small town.
also lots of bands started coming out of that part of brooklyn like MGMT, vampire weekend, yeasayer and a few others.

anyways, the last few times i have gone i have noticed lots of new developments and also lots more tourists. it seems to have lost a little something of what made it cool and it loses a little bit more every year i have been back.
my favourite little thai restaurant has been turned into a trendy bistro and a few other places have disspeared as well. the little shops used to have some nice stuff but now those same little shops have some pretty expensive designer clothes in them clearly not targeted at the kind of people who used to live in williamsburg but the new folks that have moved there recently into their million dollar apartments. hey i am not against gentrification and if anything, you could say that if a tourist like me started going there 6 years ago, then that was the beginning of the end, and its going to be downhill after that.

anyways, i was surfing the web the other day and i came across this clip. basically this means that williamsburg is dead when a celebrity nobody like this moves their with her rockstar boyfriend (alex turner, arctic monkeys) it means its over. williamsburg wasnt about millionaire 20 somethings and fashion models with tv shows. it was cool because they weren't there. fuck off to your lofts in tribeca or move to a place in the hills above hollywood and leave something for us normal people. these cunts ruin everything.





Monday 20 December 2010

cunt off!

there was a girl in the bar the other night who had lots of tattoos on her arms and hands and neck. she was covered in them and to be honest they didn't look like they had been done very well. the lines weren't sharp and the colours were a bit washed out. anyways on the top of her fingers just below the knuckles she had the word 'cunt' written on one hand and 'off!' written on the other. that way you could hold your hands together as 2 fists and it would spell cunt off!. how charming. clearly someone who really doesn't give a shit what their mum thinks.

what would possess someone to get that permantly tattoo'd on their hands?. someone must have really pissed them off badly and regularly, a bit like whats been happening to me over the last few days.

my bank is taking an age to sort out my mortgage. i have been in there a couple of times almost begging to fill in a form but they keep telling me to come back later or speak to someone else. they are also the same people that when not cancelling my credit card at random moments recently mistakenly put credit on one of my credit cards that i didnt owe money, when the payment should have gone onto the card i did use and owe money on. it was clearly their mistake, but after seeing them they acknowledged it but still told me it was my problem and that i would have to pay the outstanding balance they they mistakenly didnt pay and that i would have to then get a refund from them on the other card that they mistakenly credited. your fuck up, my problem. you people can cunt off!.

i then had a problem with my travel card that is called oyster. they wouldnt replace it at the station when i went to see them and told me i needed to bring proof of address. i went home, got a bank statement with my address on it, and they told me they couldnt give me a new one until i gave them a receipt from when i last topped up my travel card with credit. i went home again and found a receipt and went back to the station. they looked at it and said it didnt have enough information on and that i should just call up there helpline. ah, ok, thanks for making me visit you 3 times for no fucking reasons. you can cunt off! as well.

today i have mostly been listening to the arcade fire - rebellion. its from their very good album funeral. i nearly posted up the new coldplay christmas single as they are playing it on the radio as i type this post, but then i remembered its a big stinking pile of cliched shit. its anti music. its the kind of shit that is playing in department stores whilst people shop for beige curtains. its music with no other purpose aside from collecting money and royalties for a millionaire pop group at a time of year when people are shopping. its like the coldplay christmas sale. its not bit torrent and illegal downloads killing music. its shit like this taking up precious air time on radio shows when they could be playing good music from interesting bands whose sole purpose for making music is not to buy a 3rd house in the south of france or a bigger boat.

enjoy a bit of the arcade fire. merry christmas.

Saturday 18 December 2010

tree of life

a quiet week and am still not bored of not working. 2 whole weeks i haven't worked for now and it still feels good. got a couple of calls over the last couple of days about a couple of roles that are looking for people. one the roles is really good and its a hedge fund and it sounds like it might be really good. its project work which is what i want to do. we shall see how it goes.

went out on thurday night with a bunch of friends in shoreditch and had a really good night out. had to leave at just after midnight as i wanted to catch my last train home. as i was walking through the station i saw my last train was already at the platform and so i started sprinting to make it. i ran up some stairs and missed a step, started stumbling and thought i was about to regain my balance when my ruksack slipped off my shoulder and i stepped on it and i went flying face first on to the walkway over the platform. it was a brilliant comedy moment. anyways, i ended up missing the train and having to get another train which only got me halfway home and then it was time for the night bus.

went out again last night and had something to eat in farringdon and then went on to a few bars in farringdon and shoreditch. all good fun.

snow came down with a vengance today and we got about 5 inches this morning and afternoon, so no gym for me today. i am not even sure if the buses are running but i doubt it. cycling is out the question. i have slick tyres on my bike with no tread on them at all that are good for gripping on smooth dry tarmac. wet roads can be a bit a problem and 5 inches of snow is a no go.


above is a view of the yard from my kitchen.

anyways, i will try and get to the gym tomorrow. nothing else planned. will need to chase up about my mortgage on monday. it would be nice to get all the stuff done with the new flat before i start having to concentrate on getting a new contract in the new year.

they just released the trailer for a new film from one of my favourite film makers, terence malick. thin red line and the new world are two of my favourite films. this is his new film which comes out in may. it looks epic.

Wednesday 15 December 2010

town

this week is flying by quick. calls to estate agents and with solicitors as they try and get the mortgage and legal documents sorted out. i reckon it will be mid january by the time i get any keys and i might post some pics of the new place then, if its all gone through and the deal has not been scuppered. hopefully it all comes through ok. its a good thing i am not at work full time as i really wouldn't like the hassle of doing all this and working at the same time. its been good timing.

buying a place is the biggest purchase anyone makes in their life. it got me thinking about a couple of things. first was that some of my savings were from when i was working at a supermarket while i was still at school. forget about contracts in investment banks, some of the money was from stacking toilet roll and bottled water in a supermarket on my saturdays.
it also made me realise how expensive it is and how on earth people with normal jobs working in shops or offices or teachers or nurses are supposed to afford to buy places like mine. its nice but its not a palace. the last 6 months i spent working in a bank were the most lucrative i have ever had, and had it not been for that i am not sure i would be able to buy this place. it all does seem unfair and you do wonder about the implications for society and urbanisation of populations.

anyways, the week is going by quick. have been going to the gym regularly and i am feeling the difference. am lifting more and am stronger than i have been over the last few months. have been cycling most of the time though i dont like the type of traffic that you get on a weekday in london. everyone is really aggressive compared to weekends and people just seem to turn into cunts.

am out tomorrow night in shoreditch with a few friends. i also downloaded a few films and i watched one of them last night. the town, with ben affleck. to be honest i am not a fan of his and haven't watched many of his films but it was very very good indeed. if you have the means, money or an internet connection, i recommend it.

Friday 10 December 2010

a few hundred

my plan for my first week off was to go to the gym a lot and to do a bit of studying and basically just chill for a while. i ended up going to the gym the same as i usually do and did no extra sessions and i have done no studying at all.

i did however, rather spontaneously purchase a flat, (apartment). i shall not say exactly how much it was but it was quite a lot of money, ie a few hundred grand. i went to see a place on saturday and didn't think it was that great expecially seeing as they were asking a ridiculous some of money for it. i thought i would browse the web and see if there was anything better and i saw a really nice place. i viewed it a couple of time, made a couple of offers and my second offer got accepted this morning. am just sorting out all the solicitors and mortgage and all that shit now.

if my contract had got renewed at the bank i am pretty sure i would never have come across it and wouldn't have had the time to do the viewings. its weird how shit you weren't planning just comes out of the blue. anyways, as i am not working and i dont know when and where i will be working in the new year, i have decided to rent it out initially with the view of maybe moving in later in the year if i am in a nice fat contract. i can make some money off it in the meantime because i was able to put down a fat deposit and my mortgage ain't that big by london standards.
any rent i get from it will cover the mortgage and also give me a nice sum every month.

thats it really. i also saw my friend who is in the army and got back from afghanistan about a month ago. he was based with british troops all over the place and was working on some engineering and logistics projects. sounds like he got close to some action but fortunately no one in his regiment got wounded or killed.

nothing else going on really. am enjoying waking up at 9am every morning instead of 7.20am. i like being able to stay up late and watch a film on tv if i want to. little things like that are nice. i thought i would get bored and be itching to get back to working after a few days but i am not in the slightest. i could quite happily do another few weeks of this.

today i have mostly been listening to editors - in this light and on this evening. i wasn't that taken with this album first time i heard it but when i was on holiday and driving around california a few months back i found myself listening to it all the time.

Sunday 5 December 2010

finished

i finished up at my work on friday. didn't do any work but i hadn't done any for the last couple of weeks since i finished my project, so i was hardly going to get stuff to do on my last day. said goodbye to a few people. my boss called me up and wished me luck and asked me to give him my details in case they get something come up in the new year once their budgets have been approved.

actually chancer who had been told he was staying got told that he might actually not be staying because of the budget not being approved when they thought it would be, and so they were letting all the contractors know so instead of giving them a suprise in the new year. chancer was not very happy. his cash cow of a job, which involved going to breakfast for an hour in the morning, going the gym for an hour and a half at lunch time and then spending the rest of the afternoon chatting to random people in the office as well as billing 2 days on a saturday for a doing work that shouldn't take more than 2 hours, is in jeapordy. hope all that ass kissing comes in handy because you will struggle to get that much money based on your skills. harsh but true.

had a quiet weekend. weather was filthy yesterday. it had snowed during the week, but yesterday it was a couple of degrees above freezing and so all the snow turned into a dirty grey slush and it was raining yesterday as well, so it was horrible. went to the gym today and will be going during the week as well. it was a lovely crisp cold and bright day and all the slush has disappeared so it was lovely weather to cycle in.

have also downloaded some films that i wanted to see, and that will be keep me occupied as well over the next few weeks. gym, films, reading, cycling. i ain't gonna want to go back to work in the new year. actually the other good thing about the gym is that some new girl has joined is she is fantastically good looking. she must be a model. there is no way she isn't. she looks a bit like the girl that does paints the forged paintings and who was hanging around with pierce brosnan in the film the thomas crown affair. i believe the technical description is that she is hotter than a firecracker on the 4th of july.

today i have mostly been listening to the subways - rock and roll queen.