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worked on saturday and was home by 9pm which is actually quite early compared to recent saturdays. it had been grim walking to the station at 6am in the dark and cold and in heavy rain. was feeling very annoyed about having to work but then i walked past a mcdonalds and they were already open at 6 and were serving people. at least i get compensated very well for what i do, so its a bit shit if i moan about it, as other people have it way worse than i do.

sunday was the only day of the weekend and it was taken up with gym and laundry and getting stuff done. i thought my fitness was ok when i got back from the states after having not trained in nearly 2 weeks, but since then because of work or shitty weather, i have only been to the gym once a week and now i really am weaker than i was a few weeks ago. it was a struggle on saturday and even when i was cycling back home i had no legs and no power in them.

i was hoping to be not working this saturday and was looking forward to 2 whole days off, but i just got told i was needed and i do have to work on saturday after all. just need to keep thinking about them benjamins.

quiet week ahead but thats no change. applied for a few more contracts elsewhere but nothing heard back from them. no bother. the thought of walking into another contract as soon as this one comes to an end is not the appealing at the moment. i need some time to rest a bit.

today i have mostly been listening to nine inch nails - only.