well i have been off all week at home. am pretty bored but i was very bored when i was working at the bank so i figure if i am going to be bored i am much better off to be bored at home than at work in a suit and waking up early and taking the train everyday. have gone to the gym this week and have been studying for another exam which i might take on wedensday.
its still quiet on the job-front, but its very early in january and things have not started up properly yet and its early days. i think it will get busier in the next 2-3 weeks.
i am still employed and get paid, and my manager at the company i work for that places me on site rang me up this afternoon and said i had an appointment for an interview at a bank. it sounds horrible and its an a shit part of town. i really don't want to go but i have to. its on tuesday and i am going to take a dive in the interview. i will come across slightly arrogant and as a bit of a loose cannon. they hate loose cannons at investment banks and especially in technical teams. hopefully they won't want me.
on the slightest chance they do want me, i am going to tell my manager i don't want to work at that site. if he says i have to and thats it, i will quit. i know i will be unhappy there. i know a couple of people that have worked there and they all said it was shit.
some things have happened in the last year that have made me feel different. its partly a feeling a confidence and partly a feeling that i have nothing to lose anymore. it means that i willing to leave my job before i have anything else lined up, if thats what it comes to. i won't accept a shitty job. i would have at the beginning of the year but not now. i feel brave and strong.
today i have mostly been listening to the smiths - please let me get what i want. wicked tune.
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