memorial day weekend

Being in a job is preventing me from getting a job. Thats seems to be the way it works for contractors and i have seen some good roles but they only want people that can start immediately. Its frustrating. My manager is off this week and next week on holiday but i will tell him soon after he gets back that i won’t be staying. It gives them time to find someone and it also means i won’t be able to change my mind. I don’t want to pussy out at the end, and renew my contract and end up staying here taking their money. Its time to see if we have got the stones (balls) to take that jump into the unknown.

.....and there is still the prospect of a road trip thats still on my mind. That makes 2 good reasons to go and half of one reason to stay (money and safety).

Was supposed to have an exam today as has been my usual routine recently of having one on a Friday, but i hadn’t done enough study and i think i would have almost certainly failed it if i did it today, so i moved it to next Friday. That gives me the long weekend to study and also 3 evenings after work and that should get me ready to take it next Friday.

have just heard a conversation over my shoulder between one of the senior guys in the engineering team and some guy who is junior and asking for help about configuring something. the senior guy is steadfastly refusing to help the guy and not even giving any ideas how to deal with the issue. he has spent 10 minutes talking to the junior guy giving him reasons why he won't help him. " i already spoke to you about that", " i don't have time for this", "talk to XXXXX and get him to help you", " just figure it out, you won't learn anything by me showing you". 10 minutes this went on for. shit!, you could have shown him how to do it by now. so unhelpful its not even funny. i have to get out of here. i don't want to turn into that guy and become an asshole..........or become a bigger asshole than i already am. :-)

Today i have mostly been listening to Don Henley – boys of summer.
out on the road today
i saw a dead head sticker on a Cadillac

You can tell i am still thinking of the road trip across the states. i suspect it will be reflected in what i am listening to for the next few weeks.

Take care cali girl. have a good memorial day weekend. we got a long weekend here in england to. its not memorial day here. i don't know what its for actually, but i will take it.