graveyard shift

been on the graveyard shift all week and finishing at 7pm. our floor has about 300 people on it and by 7pm there are only about 10 people around, and its very quiet and dull.
next week i get the extra shock of not only being on-call 24-7 but also having to start work at 7am, which means waking up at 5.15AM. it sucks but the only consellation is that i have a week off after that and no work. will be staying home as opposed to going away anywhere. will probably study a bit in preperation of my course and will also go to the gym a lot and try and catch up with a couple of friends.

went out last night with some mates last night and i really needed it. haven't been out for quite a while. been living like a hermit and going through a routine the last few weeks of work, home, work, gym, home...... anyways we were all out and then my friends girlfriend showed up out of the blue and came over and kept telling me and my friends to go downstairs and dance with her. none of us wanted to but she kept going on and on and on and it got a bit annoying after a while. it also appeared to us that she was coked up off her head which might explain her bahviour. she is a pleasant enough girl but i can only take her in small doses because she is kind of intense.

might buy a new bike next week. will also hear if i get called in for a 4th interview or not. to be honest i kind of almost hope that they turn me down, strange as it may sound. i just feel like i want to start from fresh in the new year instead of now and its the only place i applied for and i am curious what i could get if i really started applying to a lot of places like i did at the beginning of this year.

we shall see how it goes. feels like i am just blowing around in the wind at the moment and could go in any direction at any time. probably not a good thing if it lasts a long time, but it might be ok for a few weeks. i have no idea what i will be doing in the new year. i almost wish i had something/someone to hold me down and provide a foundation or base..........if you know what i mean???. i don't know.

wish me luck for my on-call. someone from one of the other deaprtments screwed up last week and the bank lost some money when one of the systems got wiped out. we got told that management aren't happy and that they are itching to "see some blood", next time something else goes wrong. everyone is being ultra careful.

have a pleasant weekend.

without you, everything falls apart.....
without you, its not as much fun to pick up the pieces......
Nine Inch Nails - Perfect Drug