No!!

Oh no!!!!!!!
was just chatting to the guys and my boss on our desk we were talking about our routes and how we long it takes to get to work from where we live. i said that i was hoping to have a good journey from where ever i end up next year after my time here comes at an end, and the guy sitting next to me said "you could well still be here"....
"Eh?!" i replied. my boss then spoke up and said that they were currently negotiating about their staffing levels and things like that for next year and that it was still a possibility that i could be back here.

Oh no!!!!!!.
i had my heart set on a new start next year and although i could carry on here and the money is good i really want to get out and was really looking forward to january and interviewing for jobs and doing exams and not having any distractions.
I really really hope they don't renew my contract and need me for anything. i don't have much of a choice if they do decided they need me. my company will keep me here. i was thinking i could resign easily and quickly if i was between projects but my company is going to be pissed if i am onsite working somewhere and i resign. all they will see is dollar signs walking out the door and will hold me to my full notice period, whereas if i was between projects they would let me go quick because i would be costing them money and not earning them any.

....we shall see how it goes, but as is usual with these things i suspect i will find out at the last minute what is happening for sure.
still looking forward to my course next week. even more motivation to get into it now.

today i have mostly been listening to Athlete - Tokyo.