automatic

started my new job on monday and as to be expected i have done nothing all week as i wait for my accounts to be set up, though from what i have seen of what the other guys do, there is not much to do anyway. basically it looks like i will be part of a team that co-ordinates servers moves between datacentres and it looks like i will have to work most saturdays. basically its a shit job. its the job i didn't want to do. i have been hoodwinked and misled. maybe i will get put on a more interesting project but i seriously doubt it.

i would walk away from it, i really would, except for one fact. the money they are paying is silly and excessive. its almost obscene when you consider that this bank received billions in a tax payer funded bail out. at least this way, i will get all my money back and then some in a very short time. there appears to be very little work to do during the week and everything is geared up for saturday, but the whole team comes in during the week and ofcourse gets paid. its a complete doss. boredom is going to be the biggest problem. i just need to keep reminding myself that it will pay for a very nice holiday and rental car in southern california in september. actually i have already earned the equivalent of the cost of my holiday in the 4 days i have been there, but i will have to fool myself into thinking that its actually the next 4 days that will pay for it and do so for the next few weeks, or months. please god let it not be months.

in the meantime i have started to apply for other roles. i am going to get bored, de-skilled and de-motivated if i stay, and because i will be earning quite a lot, i will have little incentive to leave at a later time and will become institutionalised and trapped there. i won't let that happen but will take the money for the time being and hopefully something else comes up soon. god i hope so.

i know it sounds shitty of me to whine about not having any work to do and being paid a lot of money, and i don't mean to sound like an asshole, but thats just the way i feel. i worked in a supermarket when i was at uni and used to stack bottled water and toilet rolls and cereals every saturday for 5 years. what i am doing now is exactly the same as that, but more lucrative, but it doesn't mean its any better a job. i didn't want to stack toilet roll as a career and i don't want to work at this bank doing what i do, for the rest of my life.

its been like this at every bank. you would think i would know better by now, but i still believe that there is a good job that pays good money out there, as opposed to what i have done at banks thus far, which is bad jobs that pay good money.

today i have mostly been listening to yuck - automatic. good song with a beautifully simple video.