accepted

i ended up accepting the offer from the bank. i have a couple of other potential jobs that might be coming up and i figured that if one of those came through and it was better i would just take them and blow out the job i have accepted. am also dragging my feet a little with the security checks for the bank mainly because i am hoping any start date gets pushed back and i have a few more days off. part of me almost wanted to decline the job so i could have a month or two off, but i have to be a bit more sensible.

looked around to see if any good bands were playing in LA in the week i could go and its only really mumford and sons, and both shows are sold out. i might just stay home instead and go to the gym and take saunas and steam rooms everyday when i am there, and just get myself thoroughly chilled and refreshed. i just feel worn out. 1 week off in the last 20 months will do that to you. i might take a proper planned trip to cali in september and make sure i can see lots of bands and sports and get all the tickets booked in advance.

work has already turned into a struggle. motivation has completely evaporated and i can't be bothered to do anything, which is not good because i have quite a bit to do. i feel very tired.

today i have mostly been listening to kings of leon - knocked up.