smokin' joe

the tiredness has hit me like a ton of bricks over the last week or so. i feel exhausted. i think its a bit like when you go on a really long bike ride and you feel tired whilst doing it, but its only when you get off the bike at the end that it really hits you.

i imagine its the same for boxers in a fight. was watching the thriller in manilla, ali v frazier on tv the other day. it looked like a hell of a brutal fight in sweltering heat. both fighters looked out of it and when fraziers corner called it off just before the final round, ali collapsed in his corner as well. he had been holding himself up on will power and when he know he had won, the adrenaline faded and the pain and the tiredness took over and his body succumbed to the punishment and faitgue it was suffering from.

thats all a bit dramatic and i haven't taken 50 left hooks in the face from smokin' joe, but since i resigned i think the tiredness from only have a week off in the last 20 months has hit me. the agency called up again and were trying to get me to start next week straight after i finish up here. am getting a little annoyed about it now. i won't actually do it, but if they happen to call me up when i am in the wrong mood and with a short fuse, i could end up telling them i won't do the silly contract and walk away from it. i am tired and need a break. i told them that already about 5 times. this is not a good way to start a new contract and is not the way to start a proffessional relationship. we shall see how it goes.

anyways, only 2 more days left after today. can't wait to leave. can't fucking wait.

today i have mostly been listening to laura marling - rambling man.