judas

still no news on anything. i had forgotten what a pain in the ass getting a new contract was. its a big one. a few more calls about stuff but nothing solid and no interviews scheduled. i can guess what will happen. nothing for ages and then all of a sudden it blows up and everyone gets in a hurry after making me wait for weeks and people start getting frantic. i have been here before. as soon as i sign on the dotted line somewhere i can guarantee i will get a call a week later from someone looking to pay miles more for my perfect job but i will be locked in for 3 months at another place. it happens every year.

cycled to the gym on the weekend and again today. the weather was so grey and dark all day and it started drizzling on my way home. its so grim in london these days. the days are getting longer. physics and maths tells us that, but at the moment it feels like they are getting shorter because its dark all day. this is the 5th month of darkness and shitty weather. its not funny any more.

had a weird dream last night. i dreamt i was being drafted to basketball teams and i said i would play for the la lakers or the boston celtics, but not really anyone else. someone mentioned cleveland and i said i wouldnt play for them, but that i was not like lebron james who was from cleveland and it was his hometown team but he left them like a judas. cleveland isnt my hometown so that means i am not a judas.

weird thing is i am 5'10" and have hardly played basketball at all. we used to play around a bit when i was at school but i was rubbish at it. i only play football. you would have thought the dream would have been me being drafted in the MLS. that would make sense, or me being signed by real madrid or arsenal or inter milan. dreams make no sense.

anyways, today i have mostly been listening to mona - teenager. enjoy.