raining sunshine

and the feeling today is to leave. some days its stay, some days its leave. today is definitely a leave day.

at least its hot outside. lovely beautiful sunshine raining down on london town. did my usual lunchtime ritual of going to st paul cathederal and sitting in the gardens in front of it. its full of office workers at lunchtimes. i can't be sitting at my desk or just staying in the building going to the canteen. i like to get out at lunchtimes.

i noticed that a lot of people on our floor come in dressed casually on a friday so i decided to do the same today, even though the other 2 guys i work with wear trousers and shirts every day. one of them saw me and said my jeans and t-shirts would not be allowed. i shrugged and said i am sure it won't be a problem as lots of poeple are in casual dress and its not like we have to meet clients or anything. he shook his head in dissaproval. i shrugged in that way that says, you should tell someone who gives a shit.

i wonder if i am subconsciously trying to provoke something. my teamleader asked me the other day if i was familiar with one of their projects and if i had seen the documentation. i said no to which he replied i should ask. how can i ask about a project that i don't know exists?. did he really think i, a new person that has been here 4 weeks, would know what projects they had lined up with out them telling me about it. its like them assuming i know what projects morgan stanley have going on at the moment. its common knowledge isn't it?. doesn't everyone know that, even people that haven't or are not working there?. prick. i can ask about stuff but its all also up to them to give me information they think i will need for my job. why would you assume the new guy had project specific information even if you hadn't told him.

god its painful being the newbie. these assholes have been stuck in their jobs for years, and are never going to leave. they have no idea how difficult it is coming into a new environment and they assume that everyone has their networks set up like they do. idiots. am really feeling to leave soon. i can't get stuck here doing this.

oh, and they stiched me up. i have to work tomorrow. i start at 7am and will finish around 7pm and have to travel between 2 datancenters. thanks assholes.

anyways, i will post some music when i get home. at least the sun is shining. have a lovely weekend

today i have mostly been listening to she wants revenge - tear you apart.