date

i am waiting outside the restaurant wearing a freshly ironed shirt and clean jeans, because you have to wear a collar on a first date, everyone knows that shit.......but she is late. she is probably getting ready and making sure her makeup looks good and she has the right shoes on to match the rest of her outfit. that must be the reason she isn't here yet.

10 minutes pass by and now she really is going to be quite late indeed. its a first date and you would think that she would want to turn up on time, you think to yourself. maybe she something important has come up and her phone is out of battery. oh no, what if there has been accident?. you send her text and nothing comes back.

you move on from thinking she has had an accident and then wonder do you really want to go out with someone who can't tell time and is always turning up late. more minutes pass and now you almost hope she doesn't turn up because you calculate you can get home and get changed into your football kit and still make it down to the pitches to play that evening.

you give it 1 more minute and then you walk to the train station wondering why you asked her out anyways.

that didn't happen to me. ofcourse i have never been stood up on a date before. i am money. :-). actually thats not entirely true as i did get stood up at nine inch nails in knoxville last summer but that wasn't a date and she did end up having a fender bender that evening, so that doesn't really count as being stood up, as she did get a message to me.....so it means i am still money. :-)

i have however missed out of a ton of jobs in my time. i have had more knock backs than someone with the surname himmler applying to become a rabbi. anyways, i still haven't heard back from that job. the longer it goes on the more my chances recede. i wish they would just give me an answer. what the problem with just telling me i didn't get it. i can take it. its fine. just don't leave me on the dangle.

football tonight. christ i need it today.

today i have mostly been listening to death in vegas - aisha, a song about the worst first date you could possible have.
we've only just met, but i think you should know......i'm a murderer.

take care flower. might bump into you in socal later in the year.